Dear Rajon Rondo..

Dear Rondo,

Even though I was rooting for Lakers, I would just like to say..

i think you are awesome.

that is all.

Love
Joey

lazy is an ugly word.

yes i know. i havent written in a long long time. with blogging, consistency is key.
and it seems like i just dont know how to master that. with anything. i feel like with my life, i only have enough hands to do the few tasks at a time, and thats it. give me any extra stuff to work on.. i'll just get confused and end up dropping stuff.
so when im blogging heaps, it must mean there is something out there that im supposed to be doing but abandoning because of blogging.

for a long time.i really thought it had to do with laziness.as a child, when you are told over and over again that lazy is what you are.. you end up believing it. i didnt start questioning until i was old enough to think for myself.

perhaps i am a little lazy when it comes to certain things, like chores.. or i procrastinate with various tasks. but i am by no means lazy ALL THE TIME. to be labeled as a lazy person makes me feel horrible.

you know. lazy is such an ugly word. like stupid.

when i have children, they will never be labeled with words like that.

everytime i close my eyes..

how can anyone not love old songs like this? it just makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.. lol..

i know its been awhile since my last entry. will be posting a new one tomorrow.. need some sleep now. zzzzZzzz

my baby is not really my baby...

for the past week i have been exercising my dog every day since i picked up this book to read -


i started watching Cesar's Dog whisperer show since season 1. my best friend lent it to me and i watch a few episodes here and there when i babysit.(i dont have cable but seems like every other person does)
back then i tried using some of the techniques he teaches on the show.. like being calm and assertive.. not letting jaijai(my dog's name, its Cantonese for son/baby boy) jump on people or walk infront of me when we go out.. he used to constantly pull and pull and pull and i'd get bruises on my hand

but i just wasnt doing it right coz it didnt change TOO much of his behabiour.. until i started reading this book.. and realized its JUST LIKE HE SAYS ON THE SHOW!! you just have to WALK WALK WALK in the right way.
and that its the energy.. you see, that, i can understand .. coz that's more like my language..

so our lives are forever different. i know i know. sounds dramatic. but it really has been a big change for us. he's content. you know?

Content
–adjective

1. satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

He is no longer frustrated or over-excited.coz now he has the exercise hes been needing. sometimes he comes home way way tired and i feel like thats probably too much for him.. but he's so so so happy.
not in a tongue-out-huff-and-puff or tail-wagging type of happy. but just so mellow.
and he sleeps like a log at night now!! no more waking up in the middle of the night, strolling around the backyard.

im so so happy with our progress and how much we've achieved in just a few days. i know that consistency is key and i'll have to walk him twice EVERY DAY.
but i know i can do it. coz seeing him like this means so so much to me. although i cant treat him like a baby anymore.. but to me.. in my heart.. he will always be my baby.

i know many people dont agree with the way Cesar does things, and some even say its animal cruelty. but if you really saw the differences in the dogs, you might change your mind.
in my opinion, human beings are selfish. we LIKE to humanize things. EVERYTHING. but especially our dogs. they're not humans. they're definitely not your children. but we treat them like that because it makes US feel better. not them. think about it, do you really know what a dog needs? Is it REALLY treats and toys and affection day in and day out?

its not healthy to spoil your dog like its not healthy to spoil your children.
sure, you might get their love and affection in return.and you might be their best friends, but are you doing what's best for the people/animals you love?

sometimes love is just not enough. there is also responsibility. compassion. understanding. discipline. YES discipline. i didnt say punishment. thats VERY different. i mean discipline. like the thing that gets us out of bed to go to school/work every day. the thing that keeps us on time, dressed, showered.
its the very thing that stops us eating cheesecakes all day every day.( although i would like that very much)
thats what it is. we ALL need it.

the best thing we can do for our animal friends is to give them exactly that. in Cesar's words - in this order - exercise-discipline-affection.
it's simple. in my opinion one of the most important thing in the world -

BALANCE.
well i think so anyways..=)

Thank You Cesar Millan.

Thank You JaiJai for being in my life, being here for a reason, teaching me about life + about myself, saving me without intending to, having all the patience in the world, trusting and living in the moment.



I Love You.

bleh?

ive had such a baaaaadddd week last week.. so when the doctor said i have severe PMT, it really is SEVERE... *sigh*
AND i havent blogged in more than 10 days... -_-" how do people keep up with their blogs?
maybe im just super retarded with using the computer... i have to resize all my photos before i post them onto the blog...and i take freaking ages..
hmmm.....
anyways.. so i got my package from yesstyle. *finally.. after a whole month* its just that having ordered from them before, and also from yesasia (for dvds and chinese books) i expected them to be quicker than this. >_<"
this is one of the jumper dresses i got..


no face coz looked funny. im not sure why low self-esteem self constantly thinks that theres something wrong with my face if random people are looking at me. do you think it could perhaps mean they like my new dress instead? BLEH.

anyways.. lets talk about happier things..
on saturday, gav and i went to Rozelle Markets.. and i got myself a 2nd hand bag + a nice dress.... altogether $5.. HAHA.. yay so happy.





i wore the dress on that night.. but havent uploaded photos yet. will do so in next entry. it looks better in real life than in photo. its quite long.. (past the knees) and has a pretty pattern.
so after the markets we went to kinokuniya to get myself a philosophy book and gav a graphic novel.. and look what gav bought for me..



i never knew cher was such a big brand in japan and oh-so-popular until i started reading blogs like jennys' ( see last entry ) and started spotting cher bags in jap magz.

it came with two catalogues---





to be honest.. im just happy to get a new make up bag.. coz ive been needing it for AGES.. altho i dont understand the reason for its popularity, its rather cute isnt it? and i love the photography in the catalogues.there were heaps left at kino too.. which is surprising.. coz usually when theres a cher gift.. its always sold out.

la la la.. so that was a happy day for me. lots of goodies.oh.. and i managed to take a photo of the packet of dumplings i was talking about in my last entry.
im still addicted to them and have been boiling some whenever i have the opportunity to. =P yum yum..

midnight snacking is a naughty thing..

indeed it is. but this will teach me not to look at yummy food blogs such as grabyourfork in the middle of the night!!
so here i am.. sitting infront of my computer.. eating soupy mini dumplings. even though these are just the frozen ones you find in any asian grocery stores.. they're pretty good. the ones im having now are my favorite - pork and shiitake mushrooms.
sorry no pic coz its just too dark to get a decent photo out of my *beloved* iphone camera.

HOWEVER, the food is giving me more energy to catch up on some blogging!!
so about a week ago i ordered (yes i know.. lots of online shopping lately) a wig through a lovely girl called Rina who lives in Japan.. i found her through a cute blog that ive been reading lately - Jenny's Blog
and this is Rina's website if you ever wana buy anything from Japan, she'll be your personal shopper!!

so are you ready to see my wig? lol.. the thing is .. ive already changed my profile pic and you can see that im wearing the wig already.. tee hee hee..
so i wore it out a few a nights ago for the first time.
when gav and i went to the New Shanghai restaurant at Chatswood Chase to try the salted egg yolk crab..


it was kinda dark inside.. but i loved the decor.. everything was either black or red.. one of my favorites was this poster at the counter


and here's a pic of the crabby.. there were TWO ... and they took so long for us to finish.. very yummy indeed..



hmm... i know gav doesnt want me to post this pic coz he reckons he looks bad in it(plus my GREAT self-shot skills cut half his head off.. --") but this is one of the good photos of me so SORRY!!!



its such a nice color. well.. why did you get a wig i hear you asking.. (you're probably not, but just humor me okay?) coz i wanted a lighter shade of hair but didnt wana dye it. plus i want pretty curls without having to perm it too. ive already done that a year ago in hk .. and ive straightened it a few times after high school too.. so thinking of giving my poor hair a rest from the perming and straightening..
ive also gotten extensions in the past.. they were really pretty and fun... UNTIL they started falling out after a few months!!
so a wig is the perfect solution!! it wasnt cheap though.. but i think its worth it.=)
i just need to trim the fringe a little. look at me in this photo.. haha..


its super long i cant even see past it..
oh and im wearing my cute paul frank beanie not because it was that cold but because the wig looks cutest with a beanie or a hat i figured. so i looked through all the beanies and tried them all on.. hehe. girls get to do all these fun things at home like trying beanies on.. *heart*

to be honest, when i put the wig on for the first time and wore it out..i was really really self-conscious. i was EXTREMELY shy shy and just felt very uncomfortable whenever anyone looked at me..
like as if they know its a wig or that i might look funny and it doesnt suit me..etc etc.
but gav kept telling me he likes it and that i look cute in it.. so after awhile i started to relax abit and try not to think about whos thinking what.
thats when i realised i have more fun when i dont care what other people think. the one persons opinion that i cared about was gav's .. and he likes it! so im happy too..
i think i'll be a little less shy next time i wear it out.. =P

im very behind with my posts. =( there are so many photos to resize!! and ive been eating out a lot lately.. so tonnes of food pics... and i really would like to post them all..
i'll just post a few for now..the rest can wait til tomorrow.. or some other day. =P
So i got my color lenses from shoppingnspree (i think a week ago..) and i ordered the geo nudy celeb blue and geo angel brown.
without realising the brown ones have black rims around it.. (they're supposed to make the eyes look bigger), i found the brown too big and uncomfortable but liked the blue ones. gav gets scared when he sees me wear them.. haha.. i have to admit they do take some time to get used to.. here's a pic -


this was taken indoors.. with no flash (obviously.. coz there's no flash on the iphone.. ><)
and this is a photo of me and my godson angus!! my eyes are darker here and look a little nicer i think..


so you can probably tell from the photos that i dont put a lot of make up on... the thing is ive just started to learn how to use make-up properly. (well im still not sure if im doing the right thing) in the past ive only ever used eyeliner and sometimes mascara. but last year i bought some mineral foundation and this year i even got myself liquid foundation! and also planning to buy some blush soon. feeling very grown up.. keke.
*(actually.. im quite old to be starting now.. -_-")

hopefully i learn some tips from reading all these blogs ive found recently.. seriously it has become an addiction.. these girls are just sooooo cute and pretty and so good with their make up and clothes.. i just really want to learn to do that.. i guess in a way im trying to learn how to increase my confidence? =) so if you have any comments/tips/advices.. please feel free to leave me a comment and let me know!!!

Alrighty, this is all im gona post about today. there's a pile of clothes infront of me that i need to put away. sigh.. the joy of housework.

Kit Kat

i have to say.. im not the biggest fan of kit kats. but because gav and i have been looking at photos of junk food from Japan.. we started getting cravings for different flavoured kit kats.
oh.. and this guy is to blame. he's so awesome tho.. taking photos of all these junk food in convenient stores every monday. click on food - conbini monday.
so as a treat.. for the both of us.. i bought these-
ginger ale flavor


and milk tea flavor



i liked both (took tiny bites since im not supposed to have any sugar)
ginger ale was more lemony and soda like.. smelled like coke lollies when i first opened the pack..
and the milk tea one tasted exactly that. milk tea. VERY VERY sweet tho. so had to drink lots and lots of water afterwards.
so that was the highlight of our day.. hehe..
*yawn* im super tired right now..
night

my little escapee and asian parents

So my baby boy decided to have a little stroll by himself last night. Again. Sigh. He is almost 8 years old and still looks and acts like a puppy dog.
Proof - this was taken yesterday after his bath.


On the one day the gate decides to swing open by itself,is the day we give him a bath and hence no collar no tag. Luckily he's micro chipped and someone took him to our local animal hospital.
Kind person, whoever you are.. Thank you for looking after my baby. I believe in karma and one day that kindness will be returned to you in another form. Thank you.

It's not his fault that he loves to go out and hunt for food, he's a lab!! But it's also because I didn't train him properly when I got him as a puppy. He's my first dog, and without help and support I was quite lost as to how to train him. But I did the best I could as soon as I knew how to and we're doing so well now! Except for the running away part. Hehe. Got me so worried coz I wasn't home when it happened. Which leads me to the other part of the title.

We were out in the city.. Gav and I wanted to go on a little date since I was feeling much better from the flu. We went to watch the Chinese new year twilight parade. Half way thru the parade this Chinese woman started to squeeze in right next to me to try and get a better view. Which is alright until she started to push and kept yelling for her daughter to go stand with her.
God woman! We've actually been standing here for ages before the parade even began so please don't just come barging in like you own the place. And ffs stop yelling at your daughter!! She was so demeaning to this poor girl who's only like 10.

What is with Asian parents and their verbal and mental and emotional and in some cases physical abuse?
I'm generalizing here but unless your Asian parents are very westernized. They will be in some way abusive.
And I wana say to whoever out there who has parents that talk down on them, please don't take any of that shit in.
I mean I'm not telling you to start fights. You can confront them if you want but beware of the consequences. Especially if you're still young and very dependent on them.

What I'm saying is that block it out.
Every time they tell you you are worthless,
every time they tell you that you will never be successful unless you go to uni and get a degree that guarantees a well-paid job,
every time they insult you,unfairly criticise you,
every time they even imply to you that money is more important than happiness.
Block it out.

For every negative comment they make to you, tell yourself two positive and loving things.
Here's one -
I am a good person and I deserve good things
Or
I am lovable and kind

Write down a few of them if you need to and just keep reading it or saying it out loud until it takes over the negative ones.
Because no matter how much you think these are just words they don't affect you. They do. And becomes a part of your inner voice. And it's negative and stops you from seeing how beautiful you truly are and how you deserve to be loved unconditionally by your parents. Without judgment or certain expectations.

However, keep in mind that it's not their fault coz that's how they were treated when they were young. It's a vicious cycle, But you can stop this cycle. By blocking them out and learning to love yourself.
Asian parents still love their children, I mean why do you think they spend so much time nagging you and scaring you into studying harder etc. It's coz they want you to have a better life, an easier life so to speak.

It's just a different form of love.

But you don't want this kinda love that's filtered through criticism, threats and negativity. Have your own mind, understand the intention behind those words then block the rest out.

Please don't forget. You DO deserve to be loved and cherished and cared for, just for being you.

sick and vulnerable

so im sick with the flu. i know i have some kind of infection.. but i refuse to take antibiotics.
just gotta rest and drink more water... *sneeze* oh man... i hate being this way.feeling so fragile... so unproductive. bleh.
even though i went to bed rather early last night,i still only got 4.5 hours of proper sleep. the rest of it was just waking up every 20 mins in between violently flashy and brightly colored dreams. not even proper dreams, more like flashes of pictures.
had a pretty full-on day too. but lucky i got my Gav to look after me, being my driver and taking me to class.
not to mention massaging my fingers coz of flu-ey joint pain.
thanks bub. germy kisses for you. *mua*


picture via here

heart

so i had my first class yesterday. it's a study skills one, compulsory to do with any UPC ( university preparation course offered by SydU )
i feel so old .. to be still studying.. or starting uni now! but i really wanted to do this. you know. moving forward. learning new stuff.
and im proud of myself for making that decision of going back to uni. all morning i was nervous about catching a bus there, and not knowing what to expect in class etc..
but it turned out alright. and i think i'll be okay with the whole making an effort to go to class thing. coz its fun. kinda.

anyways. happy chinese new year to all who celebrates it. hope you have lots of FUN family gatherings to go to and hence receive lots of red pockets.(please refer to wiki for more info on red pockets/envelopes/hung bao) i know my $$ will go towards my uni course fees. *so grateful for this tradition*
oh oh.. the child in me was SO excited to see a lion dance in the city as its been awhile since ive seen one.. so i took some photos..




and since today is also Valentine's Day. Gav and I went to the city for lunch. we had my favorite - SUSHI! at sushi rio on sussex street.. YUM YUM. all plates are $3 for lunch. *faint* they're normally so cheap already, cant believe its only $3! to me thats equivalent to a *sale*. im more a food person than a clothes person.. so yeah..
Gav likes this crab rice thingy. its okaaay.

soft shell crab on tacos



then i got even more spoilt by having a chocolate gateau at Azuma's patisserie.


since ive been on an anti-fungal diet ( not a complete one.. but have been significantly cutting out sugar and yeast ) i havent had *ANY* sugar.. *sob sob* so i was VERY happi to have a cake to eat today. and on the plus side. the cake wasnt that sweet.
*smiles*




ordered a matcha latte for gav. which wasnt sweet either. so no guilt there. tee hee hee..
here's a pic of my giant cake which i gladly shared with Gav.



i wana go back and try their other cakes .. they looked so heavenly. but it wont be awhile since my anti-fungal diet is here to stay. *sigh*

ah wells.. im just happy i got to eat cake today!!!!!!!
Happy Valentine's Day~

Yes. gav is shirtless. coz it was hot. and no im not naked. see the sleeves? its just a shoulder showing top thingy. promise.

jittery jo

so this morning i woke up and felt really jittery. i dont know why. its never happened to me before. just this bad vibe. all morning.
it might be nerves.. coz i started my first karate lesson today. i had to choose between karate or boxing(which i was doing before)..
i loved boxing.. but i chose karate coz its a lot cheaper... and i mean boxing=$80, karate=$8 cheaper. yeah...
plus karate is different, you concentrate a lot more. there's a lot to remember all at once therefore it works the mind as well.
and i really liked it. it was a great workout. and im much more flexible than ive ever been.. so im happy.
no photos coz i dont have my GI (uniform) yet. should be getting that monday. i cant wait!!

feel like i should at least post a photo.. coz the entry feels so nakey without one..
tonights dinner - teriyaki beef udon

im sorry what?

so something interesting happened yesterday.. i went to the liquor store to get white wine so i could make mussels in white wine and cream for today right? (photo later).. and get this... the guy asked me for ID. *shocked*
i was like " im sorry, what? " thinking this must be a joke. i am 24. he thinks im 7 years younger than i actually am? should i feel good about this? or insulted?
i was a little upset to be honest. coz i dont normally dress up or put too much effort into looking good. and yesterday was the day i chose to really pay some more attention to myself.

*ive been in a relationship for like EVER so most of the time i just cant be bothered. i mean he already knows im beautiful right? so who else do i have to show it to? but ive decided that well maybe i can do this for myself. it feels good to dress up and look pretty once in awhile..

so anyways. yesterday i decided to put a little more accessories on, and also put a little vest over my plain top which i normally would just wear. and this guy.. this guy!!! thought i looked young.
does this mean i FAILED? i dressed like a teenage girl? or is it just my face? BLEH!!
this is what i wore.


please ignore the mess in the background. i have been decluttering.. im working on it!!
is it so bad? am i one of those girls who puts make up on and just look like a teenager? *sigh*

bleh. but enough of my whinging. this is what i made for lunch today with the white wine sauce.

and this is what i made for dinner tonight. it's a prawn spaghetti.

they're both recipes from the jamie oliver application i got last week on my iphone.
and they both turned out to be very yum indeed. best $6 ive spent on a recipe application. well.. it is the only recipe app ive ever bought. but yeah you know what i mean.

anyways, before i go, just wana clear up a few things. no i dont take a photo of what i wear every day. in fact this is the first time ive ever done it and posted it up..
i think its cute to do it tho. a little vain and shallow,yes. but i can live with it. it gives me more motivation to dress up a little. so there.
another thing is.. yes i wear my glasses most of the time. im that lazy. but if its a special date with my baby or im doing sports (bodyboarding) then i do make the effort of putting contacts in.. otherwise BLEHHHHHH...

tee hee hee.

ouch

so i went to the beach on friday. didnt think i would stay long but i did. and didnt apply sunscreen. which is a VERY VERY silly thing to do,kids. so im sunburnt. *surprise surprise*
you cant see it properly in this photo coz of bad lighting.. but its red. and my thighs are even worse.

please ignore the weird pouting lips. i was being whingy bcoz of the pain.

but anyways.. i got my brother to get me an aloe vera gel to relieve some of the pain and he got me a Thursday Plantation aloe vera gel... which is GREAT. coz i normally use a lot of Thursday Plantation stuff. they are mostly tea tree oil related so i had no idea there was an aloe vera gel. it is super good. only down side is the stickyness on your hands afterwards.. plus its unscented so smells a bit weird. but it works very well.. for both me and gav.
here is a photo of the gel..

i'll be needing another one soon coz im almost done with this one. its only 100g.. i have been however, using it every few hours. so it has *surprisingly* lasted for awhile.

on a different note, i have spent the whole day decluttering my room.. YAY! thats one of my new years resolutions.. to declutter. coz my rooms a big mess.
i have way too much junk. im one of those junk collector type of people. also those i-cant-throw-it-away-i'll-need-it-later type of people. AND an emotionally attached to objects kind,too. but i think you cant really be just the one type anyways.hehe.

i think ive been much better tho. last year i learnt not to buy so much crap. buy only what i need and really really really want. oh and to throw out/give away/sell on ebay something at home whenever i buy something new.
but this year im really gona chuck out stuff. like heaps. things that i dont use anymore (havent used in 1/2 year or more) and things ive grown out of. its time to let go.

i kinda have this theory.. the clutter in your life represents your mind. clear out either one.. the other will follow. i cleared out my room today - already i feel a lot more calmer. breathing slower and just content.
so if you want to clear your mind. clean your room/house. =)
im actually so so proud of myself for doing it, as ive been feeling a little lazy lately. and this clean up has motivated me to do more and be more productive every day.

so now im gona reward myself with some beauty sleep.. tee hee hee..

hi all.

so.. this is a space for me to show you(and myself) my life through my crappy iphone camera. i'm sure i'll be getting a proper camera in the future, i just don't know when. so for now, this will be the name of the blog and my iphone is what i'll use to capture all the big and little moments of my life. so basically food, my dog and people i know.
but mostly it would be me complaining, rambling, ranting and showing different emotions and making judgments/stating opinions that i'm normally too polite(chicken) to say to other people.

Happy reading! =)